Saturdays

Saturdays----- Holly Brook

Saturday what a day what a silly little day.
Time to kill take a pill as I sit and contemplate.
How I'd like to be around all the people in the town with their fancy cars and things.
But I...I've got time.
Stop pushin all your tragedies away.
Each moment has got a lesson for the day
Take something with you if you drag your heels in yesterdays
Oh these Saturdays....
In the haste, in the grace,, I've been up to my waist
It isn't real what you feel when you find love in a chase
I've been waiting for the day when someone takes me away and I never get replaced
But I....I've got time
Stop pushin all your tragedies away
Each moment has got a lesson for the day
Take something with you if you drag your heels in yesterdays
Oh these Saturdays....
These Saturdays...oh
As I sink one more drink I am running out of ink
Feeling void, paranoid, about every little thing
And I wonder if I try to get up and say goodbye if I'll have the strength to leave
Cuz i...i don't have much time anymore
Stop pushin all your tragedies away
Each moment had got a lesson for the day
Take something with you if you drag your heels in yesterdays
Oh these Saturdays...
Hm.
These Saturdays...

It's Christmas guys...what are you gonna get? Or what did you get? I don't know yet. But soon I will because we are going by "Real world" time. Not home time. So really I get to open my presents on the 26Th of December. It doesn't matter to me either way. Aloura is excited though, it will be her first Christmas. I know what she's getting, and she's going to like it. Actually I know what Rioriki and Phury are getting too, and all of the other Brothers for that matter. I'm pretty much a vampire now...I just don't drink blood. Ew, that's nasty. Aloura eats a lot. She always has a little box of it with her, like a juice box but don't confuse it with actual juice. I did once. Not yummy. Later tonight my family and me are going over to Angel's place. They bought us presents. I don't know why. But we got them stuff too, so whatever. I hope your holiday is good. My present won't come until my birthday....maybe. I don't want to sound like a whiny little brat but...I want to see my mom and dad tomorrow. Really badly. Almost to the point I want to go find them and tell them to get over themselves for one day so I can have my parents. Just one day. But that's not going to happen. They never really liked each other. Even when I was a baby the fought, and screamed at each other. Barely able to stay in the same room even then. Now that they aren't together anymore, I'm sure their happier. I hope at least. Ever wanted something you can't have? I do it all the time, just not aloud. But it's different if its in your head right? I think so...Oh! And for all of you that think Angel and myself are going out let me clear this up for you; WE'RE NOT! We should be, but we aren't. Just let it go, Auntie/Grandma, Suketsu, Grannpa, Phury, Vishous, Nini, Carius, Neytani, GG, and everybody else! Let it go. Just let it go. Now that all that is Clear. I'm going home. To the castle, to be dumb and sit in my parents old room. Don't ask why....just let it go. Laters.

~Mochidzuki Toshibaya Tazuna~

July 12, 2006

I've lost my heart to the cruel hands of fate,
It's a painful thing, and a feeling I hate,
I should have said something when given the chance,
Now I can't, it is part of life's cruel dance,
This mind numbing love loss smothers me like a poisonous gas,
In the end she ripped through my heart with broken glass,
I lost my world to my friend in the end,
And I can't help but wonder if perhaps my heart will mend,
I've loved her more than anything, ever since I was a kid,
Once I thought she loved me too, but she never did...

These pieces of me fall one by one,
This hurt may pass, but the damage is done,
Sometimes still, I wish of my love she could learn,
Though I doubt when she does, my heart will return...

~Davon Cyprien~

New Waves on the Surf!!!!

Aye guys!
What's shakin ppl? I'm the new kid on the block. Well one of many. I just thought I should make myself truly known. Anyways My name is Keisha Monique and my last name doesn't matter. I know it sounds ghetto. But I'm not. Of course Sylyence would disagree with that but *shrugs* that's his problem. I try not to take shit from anyone, but if your retarded I'll let it slide *wink*. Lol. uhm...I'm 21 years old. I have an older brother who's 23. His name is Tyreese. If he want's to post then he will. That's all you get to know of my bro bro. I love him to death so don't fuck with him either. hehehehee. Uuuhmmm...what else. I'm black, or African American to all the pale folk out there. My favorite color is very obviously green. But I like blue too. I'm fairly tall, depending on who you are. That would be a proud 5'8". My hair is short and right now I have it curled like...reference reference Ooo like goldy locks...except light brown. Not extremely light it's more of a milk chocolate mixrd with carmel color. My eyes are light jade green. I know it's weird huh. I think that's enought for now. So how are you? Good I hope. I'm kinda tired....got in a fight last night. Kicked broads ass, but still it was enough to make me sleepy.UHm...I love my host to death so don't fuck with her emotions or I'll have to kick your ass too. Cool? Coool. There's alot of newbies around, so maybe one of them will post eventually. I think I'm done now. Any questions? Put 'em in tha comments. Have a special day.

~Keisha~

SHWAAAH!

Oh my god it's been forever, absolutely forever. I'm so happy to be done! My schooling is complete and I may do with it what I will. Graduation is next week so until then I'm free!! I' so glad to be out of that place, and hopefully I'll meet some new people and revive old friendships. Goodness, I wonder what everyone is up to? I'll pop into Chatzy later and see if someone will show. ^_^ Heeheehee I'm so excited! I think I've changed a bit since anyone saw me last. I'll tell you a bit.:

New Favorite Color: Blue-Green

New Favorite Word: Catastrophe

New Favorite Song: Ballad Of The Black Mesa (I'm heavy into Techno right now)

New Favorite Book: "Sayonara, Bon Voyage!" --- Shetsumae (This book is old)

New Favorite Phrase: "When you love something let it go, if it returns it's yours to keep, if it doesn't it was never yours to begin with." ---Suketsu (she said that forever ago)

New Favorite Hobby: Sleeping! (I haven't gotten to do a lot of this in the past few YEARS)


Okay that's all you get to know!! Well I'm going to go pack up my things and come home! Finally. I wonder how much has changed....

16 Going On 17,
Kitten

Wahlala

Yeah so...never done this. Kinda weird doing it now. But SOMEONE from this side needed to post and I'm free for a second so why not? Probably can't guess who I am though BWAHA! lol So life is good how about yours? Pain is bad pleasure is GOOD. HAhaha. Ahem anyway. So our band should be getting back together in a couple months (Counting on February guys, really, c'mon.) And hopefully that will be cool again. I'm waiting to get things back to normal around here, suddenly everything got so...dreary. And on my end, I know why. But that doesn't excuse the rest of you! Rehv has his excuse, valid. Hiro's got his, valid. What about the rest of you huh!? lol don't mind me I'm stupid. Probably know who I am by now Huh? If you don't your not as intelligent as I thought! J/k. Heeeeeey did you hear? Probably not the best way to say this but I'm excited (Sai is too, though she may deny it) She's changing her name, though keeping her own for OBVIOUS reason. S.A.S + S.J.S Mm na na na na! lol if you can't figure out why it changed then again, your not very smart!!!!!! (Veo was mad at first but he's cool with it now) And don't say we're too young either cause thats BULL. Your never too young to get with the other half of your soul, you know. Well I'm done and needed. PEACE!

Rockin' and Rollin',

SHIRO JAKAI SOBIETATSU

Here's Looking At October 25 2008

Find Me.

What would you do if every time you turned around you ran into someone who had hurt you, betrayed you, left you, hit you, lied, cheated, or hated you? I can only imagine what some of you would do. How many of you would just endure it and try your best to go on with your life? I know some of you would just stop everything and move somewhere new. I can't stay here too long, because I'm looking for someone and when I find him I'm going to leave because I have to...I have to go back, once they notice I'm gone I'm dead. I just have to know that he's okay, because he is dear to me...but even more dear to his sister. Of course he would never know how much he means to me. Because I could never never ever tell him to his face. He's so beautiful, and so tortured. But still his heart is true and pure. I love how dedicated he his to protecting his family. Which is why I will leave as soon as I know he fares well. I might be bringing trouble to him, just by being here just by writing this now. So I had best go find him....just to check....just to be sure...just because...I love him.



Nietai....where are you?
Yalana Areed



P.S: I'm sorry for this. Forgive me.

Tallyho!

What is the color of life? How about the color of hate? Or the color of love. I think the color of love is Lucian's favorite color. *nods* Yeah that's probably it. 'Cause he so loves Lameriee. BUT he won't admit it. That's okay though she won't admit it either. The color of hate is probably Lucian's least favorite color, or Lucifer's fave(to Lucian anyway.) *shrugs* Who knows. Anyway, I'm Lucianna, Lucian's twin sister and Lucifer's regular sister. I'm bored right now and playing with the computer seemed like a bright idea. is it entertaining me....slightly. Sooo we dont have a problem. Except I have no music because this girls account doesn't have what I want. That's okay though....(my brother is being a retard on the floor right now lol j/k) Sooo, I'm new I guess...that's what they say anyway. I live with Aaela in her house with, Lucian, Lucifer, Jeremiah, Matthew, Loraina, Yukiko, Usarusen, and Yukirosen. LOOOOTS of ppl. I know it's crazy, but enjoyable. Uhm....I think I'm gonna see what else is on this junk box. Soo tootles!!

Exotic Twin,
~Lucianna~

Definition:Sexxay! (way old post)

Do you know the definition of sexxay? I know the defintion of sexy is:
1.Arousing or tending to arouse sexual desire or interest
2.Slang. Highly appealing or interesting; attractive
Have you ever seen someone completely freaking undeniably off the wall sexxy? I mean so so sexxy that you couldn't breathe, talk, or let alone think? I have. I don't know what exactly made him so sexxy today. Maybe it was the air he had about him, or the way he held himself. Maybe the intense desire I caught in his eyes when he looked at me. Or maybe something else. Am I rambling? Hehehe *blinks* Anywayz, if you know me, you know who I'm talking about. But I won't say any names (starts with a 'J' and ends in an 'n') I've known him for like two months now, so I see him alot. And Omg he came to visit me today, at work. I was working! Can you believe that! I couldn't. But his ultimate sexxiness just like washed over me. Let me give you some description. He was wearing a blood red button up shirt with a black design on it. Except it wasn't buttoned. It was wide open, so it exposed his rock hard six pack and smooth masculine chest. (can you say drool worthy?) His pants were loose (almost baggy) and plain black. His hair was down, so it fell over his broad shoulders, yes it's long and so incredibly soft and silky. I can't get over his smile either. It's usually a slow smile. You know the kind that grows as the seconds tick by, and you just wait until it's got the full affect of overly hot guy in it. Kami it was absolutely amazing. When I saw him, I almost fell over...like completely over! But I caught myself before I hit the ground. I mean, I've seen sexxy before, but this was agh I don't know...overwhelming? I know my jaw was hanging open, and my eyes were probably a little buggy too. He was talking to me, and all I could do was nod. It was a bone melting experience. I'm going to go see him, sometime this week. I don't know when though. I have to get over the sexxy wave first.

Forever Yours,
Manahira Tazuna

Nothin More To Say

Couldn't be prouder to occupy the mind in which is occupied. A little confused. We, the voices are writing this to acknowledge our host and the sacrifices she's made to allow us to live within her mind. Perhaps this may sound a bit crazy to those who know nothing of her, or us for that matter. Not that many people read this. But we just all wanted to thank her. We know it's not really enough to show our appreciation, But it's enough. It's all we can do for now. Because none of us plan on leaving. Not everyone will say something, but we've all agreed to do this.

We know how much we hurt your mental stability.
We understand that we've taken things from you that you can never get back.
We acknowledge the fact that you have not punished or condemned us in any way.
We do care about your feelings.
We do not and would never, intentionally harm you.
We consider you our family (in various relations.)
We believe in your ability to bounce back.
We think you are beautiful.
We like your cooking.
We would never kill your friends (no matter how much they piss us off.)
We have dedicated a day to you.
We would never had made it any where without you.
We know how much our activities bother you. (but we don't plan on changing them)
We will never try to take your place.
We believe in you more than you believe in yourself.

~We love and cherish you with all our hearts.~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

How often have you wondered if we were real? We are all proud to tell you we are, and that you are not crazy. Well kind of. We know there are certain people that stick out more than others to you. Most of them have been here a while. Some of them have things to say.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Suketsu Tenshi Aleandera: "Hey there. I know I've been here a long time and I have partially ruined your life with my fanatics. I just want you to know that I love you sooooo much. I really do appreciate everything you've done and are doing for me and my family. The kiddies love you too. Even if they are assholes sometimes. Sehyo included. We all appreciate and care for you. Where would I be if you weren't there?! As one of the first voices I just want to sincerely say, Thankyou."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Hitokaryuu Doyo Kanjiru: "Nice to get some appreciation around here hm? Lol. No, but in all seriousness, I'm really glad I'm in your head. Sounds weird I know, but I am. You've saved me countless times without knowing and I really really appreciate it. Same as Suketsu said the brats love you too. I'm sure I've caused some trouble, but it was all for the better and I'm happy you don't hate me for it. Just keep bein you. You'll get further than you think."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Rioriki Lee Fe Tazuna: "Surprise surprise. Probably the last person you'd expect huh? I know I haven't been here as long as the other two, but it's felt like forever. And I must tell you, aside from all the misfortunes(which have been going on my entire life) residing within your mind as been a great experiance. No one says thank you enough. A lot of us don't even understand the extent of your kindness and everything you've given us. I do and I thank you for it. Everything, the support, the patience, everything. Riukuru, Phury and my daughter do too."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Yuki-maru: "Hey little love. I'm probably one of the more recent ones as well. But I never get to thank you or tell you how proud I am. So I saw my opportunity. You are wonderful. More so then you or anyone you know knows. You think your odd, I think you are the most normal person I know. You brighten the world. "

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Setsuna Hatsuro Mai Sobietatsu: "Oh my have you seen how long my names gotten. Heeheehee anyway, I wanted to thank you personally too. Well not personally but in a message aside from the group thank you. I just have to say that you keep us all 'alive' and that is worth so much more than a thank you. But there is only so much I can do for you. I appreciate you as I have no else. Just know that if you ever need anything I am happy to help. Thank you soooooooooo much!! "

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Korugaekin Mikado: "How goes? Well I hope. My message will be brief. I wanted you to know that you have kept me sane since the day I arrived and that is so much more than I could ever ask of anyone. Thank you doesn't even begin to express how grateful I am. But hey...thanks anyway."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Hinaita Shinsei Mujaki: "Oh my god I love you. You're like a sister/ aunt to me and I don't have many of those. I am so glad for you. So many of the good things that happened in my life never would have occurred had it not been for you. Thank you thank you thank you thank you." ^_^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~Yokutosinosuke' Kanjiru: "I want to thank you for being one of the few to give me a second chance when I deserved so much less than that. You truly have a heart of gold."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So many more people wanted to say something. But the message itself is already huge. Even of the individuals that are not listed up there with specific thank yous', we assure you EVERYONE had something unique to say about how much they loved and appreciated you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You who is our guide.

You who is our rescue.

You who is our salvation.

You whom we could not live without.

You our sister, our mother, cousin, aunt, and friend.

You who is worth more than gold and diamonds.

You who have forsaken yourself.

You who is our light.

YOU ARE MORE THAN YOU KNOW!!!!

We could never be without you. We love you so much. Just wanted to say

THANK YOU SO MUCH

to our host, our family, our friend, our only true love

~Infinity~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Love For Longer Than Forever,

~~~~~~~~~

Akeno, Angelo Monsiry Narun-ray, Anora Jito, Aubrie Kasaeta, Aaelana Wakalani, Alexzandra, Ashigori, Anaya, Ahgony, Ahvenge, Bahfahvonea, Byikalanehry, Clare, Damien, Darius, Destiny, Davon, Devonovan Tisara, Derrick, Emarimaru Sobietatsu, Etsukakasu, Edward Shaden II, Elovonnavriee, Farrell, Farron, Fioraaya Marie Motokay, Gabriel Tifiara, Grace, Germaine, Geoffrey, Hinaita Shinsei Mujaki, Hiraarabayashiri, Hitokaryuu Doyo Kanjiru, Hoshiko, Ikarri Akurei, Inarri Akurei, Itakushamaru Sobietatsu, Ieriserine Aerith Shaden, Itsumai Jakiro, Jamila Masika Fukayana Zephaniah, Jirusai Jito, Jeremiah Tisara, Jevateyo, Jesse, Kagejin Aakia, Kaiokonei, Kasondra Devans, Katamey, Katari Eien, Kiidra, Kiokin, Kokoa Kasaeta, Korugaekin Mikado, Kya Byakurin Mayabi, Kyosera Aleandera, Kilanalphin, Kyarameru Emari Koduku Aleandera, Lafayael Kironai Mayabi, Leiyona B., Lotus Fakayna, Lulu, Lameriee, Lilliya Ahvea, Lyes, Makiiyume Zeijaku, Manahira Tazuna, Miatara Akurei, Mishumori, Mizuumi Sato, Mahntra, Naname', Nami Sora Kodoku Aleandera, Natsuya Motokay, Navii, Nyusu Shori, Nicole, Namera, Naverra, Neaseline, Nani Ahvea, Nietai Mujaki, Neikra Girji, Natali, Nahime, Odin, Okirishi Sato, Otishinmaru, Pamondria Narun-ray, Pstulenessa, Ptanari, Qualise, Rioriki Lee Tazuna Fe, Romio, Ryukasakiube' Leon Mikado, Rikila, Ryuuzaki Lie Koduku Aleandera, Saephon Akurei, Saiyo Aakia, Setsuna Hatsuro Mai, Shunae Purin Kanjiru, Suketsu Tenshi Kodoku Aleandera, Seera Rein, Sahime', Tikara, Tori Shujin D.A, Tatanayu Misahama, Tenessa, Trinity, Tsuleyamen, Treavion, Tsukaira, Usarusen, Vencint, Willow, Xanmire, Yakkaru 779, Yoshitoru Nenstubaya, Yuki-maru, Yunakiraney, Yyzamochilin, Yokutosinosuke' Kanjiru, Ze'phon Kanjiru, Zeimay Florra Mayabi, Zenisha, & Zioris

P.S Sorry for any spelling errors or other errors of any kind.

Disclaimer: No one was harmed during the creation of this message..®

~~~~~~~~

Hito: YOU LIE!!!
Suketsu: Shhh...she doesn't need to know that. *pushes him off the message*
Hito: *yelling as he's pushed away* I HAVE THE RIGHT TO AN ATTORNEY!!!
Suketsu: *rolls her eyes* Mhm...I'm sure. Just run along and be a freak.
Hito: Awe...that was mean.
Kin: Was not.
Hito: NO one asked you.
Kin: *shrugs*
Suketsu: Okay....we're done now. Byeeeee
Hito: This isn't over!!!!!!! I'll be baack!

AP©

®written by Suketsu Tenshi Kodoku Aleandera
All patrons were interviewed by the Aleandera Pack©

All planning and preperations done by Infinity Voices Inc.©

All Rights Reserved®

Grateful

Can you know how grateful I am? Of this man and my sister who have rescued me from hell and saved my life. I am blind, scarred, and disturbed but I am happy. At the same time I am very frustrated. There are so many things that at this moment in time I cannot do. Though they need to be done. She has revealed herself to those fiends on two occasions to help me. I am within another's home and yet I am still bringing danger to her, her mate, and her mates family. The pain I am in...is nothing compared to the pain they will cause her if she is found. This...I cannot let happen. I am sure she has told many of the images they projected to her. They've been doing it for years. Ever since she was young. Though back then I had the strength to block them, so they would not disturb her childhood as they had mine. Now she has her mate for that and I need not waste my energy. I do not know where I am, or who is with me half the time. But I hear her voice sometimes, and that of others speaking to me. They all have such wonderful voices compared to those I've heard my whole life. I am still weak, I cannot do much but I will protect my sisters family somehow. Eventually I will have to leave, I should have left the moment they brought me. I am being selfish. Taking advantage of their pity because it feels good to be cared for. To be able to move without cutting myself on iron shackles. I have been tortured my entire life, from the moment I was able to walk I have been poisoned. Though I must say once more I am grateful. Had they taken my sister from the beginning I don't know what I would do. I was able to block her image from them, so they took me instead. I suppose I will tell people of my life at a later date. Reliving the torturous moments would harm my mental stability, and I would not like to go insane. As soon as I am able I will leave this place, and my sister. It will be hard...for I have just begun to recognize her voice, and her touch. I do not know what she looks like...I cannot see her. But I'm sure she is beautiful like our mother. I do not want to leave, but it is necessary if I am to protect her family. Recently I have learned of a vision a member of her family had. That men would come to kill her mates father who is protecting his young, rape and defile his woman and destroy his entire family by doing so. I have an odd foreboding that I am the one to bring this destruction. The vision said these killers, two of them, have ice blue eyes. I vaguely recall a few of the men who tortured me. Two of them had ice blue eyes. They were merciless creatures. I will not allow this vision to be true, this is why I must leave. I have led killers to their family...for that I will be forever sorry. It is so peaceful here...

~Nietai~

The Current Situation

Have you ever secretly wondered about something that wasn't at all your business, and then questioned why you cared? *sighs* I live with two males, one of which is more of a second parent to me than anything else. The other is his son..and I find myself resenting many of the females he takes. Why? *shrugs* I haven't a clue. Well maybe I have the slightest inkling as to why. But I'm not certain so I will not post my thoughts on...my thoughts. Right now I am staying in a guest house owned by the Blood Brothers because there is something wrong with my fake father's son. I would tell you, but it's rude to spout information that is not yours to share. Anyway, he believed it was best that I leave their house, apparently he does not trust himself. It's resonable I suppose,but for some reason I find myself upset with his dismissal. It is another one of those things I don't want to explain. I mean we never really talked that much before. Mostly it seemed like he didn't pay attention to me. We both minded our own business. But as he is eased by my presence I find I am silently curious, and...there is a word I cannot seem to figure out that I would like to use to describe my feelings in his presence. Anyway, it is nothing bad, just...a reaction I have never had before. I do not wish to get too attached to him though. For some reason, I feel that were I to do that, it would not end well. As he is one that requires the attentions of many females. Last night he told me that right now I am the only one he wants to be with like that. I have no thoughts on this...I just don't know. No one has ever wanted me intimately before. So it is a pleasant surprise that someone does. A Blood Brother nonetheless. Though I suppose I am making it more of an honor than it should be made. This particular Brother has wanted many females, I am just one of many. I have run with his father's pack for thirteen years now. I knew he had a son. I have met him before, though I doubt he remembers and I am surprised do. He used to protect me all the time. *smiles* It was funny, cause I was stronger than him then. The entire pack was seperated, and I was the only one that was found. My fake father was the one who found me. His wife was killed and his son was missing. We looked for him for a long time. Eventually he and I went our seperate ways. He continued looking for his son, and I...went off on my own. Not happy memories there. Anyway, my friend does not remember me. I supose for the better...but these again are things I dare not express. Anyways, now I am staying in the cold, quiet guest house. I will be here for a month I think he said. *sighs* There are many things that have gone unsaid, perhaps when I figure out how to express myself correctly I will speak what it is I cannot at this moment. I never have been good at getting things across to people with words. Uhm...I'm sure many people will know what and who I speak of, and still many others will not. I am done now, I need to make the guest house more cozy, so *waves* I'll see you around.

TWMA,
~Navii~

Ki and Shunae was here!

Yo! WINE AND BEER! lol HIIIIIIIIII! Ki is stupid. And this blog will make absolutely NO SENSE. REd vs. Blue. Lenny Bruce. Langston Hughes. Sooo....how are you people doing? Good I hope. I miss my baby. I wanna wake him up but I won't. Uhm....Yeah that's weird. Ki won't say anything cause he's a bumb faced malarky eater. Heeheeehee. lol I think I'm done now. BYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Are You Curious?

Curiosity
[kyoor-ee-os-i-tee] noun, plural- ties.

1.the desire to learn or know about anything; inquisitiveness.
2. a curious, rare, or novel thing.
3. a strange, curious, or interesting quality.

Hi! Curiosity is a very odd word. I like it though. It's very interesting. You know...it seems since my sister and I entered Sire's house, we haven't been able to leave. Not saying that's a bad thing but it's just weird. I sleep in the cats room. His bed is freakin huge, don't even ask if you don't understand I promise you it's not worth it. His name is Curiosity, which explains the definition and stuff. Heehee, I like the cat. He's awesome. Even though he's just a 'house cat.' (He's bigger than me. But don't tell anyone.) Anyways, I just got bored and decided to post. This really is a nothing post. Just to tell you life is gewd.

Eternal Love,
Yumetsuki Anala Zynishe

P.S. I'm sleepy. v_v

Name

Name

What’s in a name that isn’t in a word?

Temptation

Testament

Pain

Hunger

Hurt

Redemption

Agony

Wrath

Rage

Sadist

Lust

Greed

Fury

Vicious

Fate

Revenge

Silence

Courage

Envy

Gluttony

Sloth

Touch

Listen

Care

Pity

Naivety

Maturity

Jealousy

Forgotten

What’s in a name that isn’t a word?

Can you tell anything about that person by asking simply their name?

Can you tell what their voice is like?

How they think?

How hesitant they’ll be to tell you?

What happened to them to make them pause?

Why judge them by their name alone?

Would you want them to do so of you?

Because you have a “Real” name?

Tristan

Michael

Angela

Hope

Ellen

Sean

Richard

Gregory

Lucas

Louis

Theresa

James

Anna

Brianna

Harry

Francis

Zoë

Victoria

Ophelia

Quentin

Pricilla

Ethan

Irvine

Sarah

Can’t you think about something else?

Stop judging us by our names.

Your name makes you sound short, fat, deep voiced, big families, skinny, high pitched, whiney,
idiotic, pathetic, strong, stressed, tweaked, carefree, young, old, angry, peaceful, lost in dreams, earth bound.

Your name sounds dumb. It doesn’t fit you. You look more like a this or a that.

Don’t judge people by their names if you want respect for your own.

Can you realy pick so much out of a person by making fun of their name?

Yes. You Can.

And It Hurts.

Think about you own name before you comment.

Do I sound like this all has happened to me?

It has.

My name is Ryeela.

Yeah. Yeah. Say what you want.

What does my name say about me?

What does it imply?

What are you reminded of when you say it?

Does it roll off your tongue nicely or is it choppy?

Does it make you cringe?

OR remind you of a friend?

Whatever it makes you feel think about your own name before making fun of mine please.

I could make a lot of jokes about you too I’m sure.

Ryeela Nazeme Tavon.

Argh!

----- Taki


Okay so I know I'm posting about something stupid but I need to know.

http://www.addictinggames.com/cheatmaster.html

Play this game ^^^^ and tell then leave a comment on your highest score (if it's not zero)
Okay? Please please! Because I can't get over 100 points


THANKS!.
Taki

P.S: This is kind of spamming, huh?
P.P.S: Sorry ^_^

How Can I Go On?

I'm trying...very hard...I am. But...it is hard. And it still hurts. It hurts alot. I still feel the ripping, the tearing of my heart and the breaking of my soul. I'm not sure I can go on too long like this. How could I? I'm dying...I know it. This has to be what death feels like. Perhaps if I just end it now...maybe the pain will subside in the afterlife. But then I'd go to hell anyway. I couldn't stop it. Maybe I'm already there? Imagine your body tearing and shredding down the middle. Imagine the burning agony you'd go through as this happened slowly. Imagine watching your blood pour from this endlessly opening wound to pool around your feet. Can you see that? Can you see your heart very slowly melting inside of you? Burning every thing the tiny flaming drops touch as it cascades through your body. Imagine the ricocheting of your bones, like glass shards cracking them. But they don't break right away...they continue to crack, more and more cracks added over time. Can you feel it? Your finger snapping backwards. And as you watch your bones begin to protrude from your hands. The blood flows; as a steady river down your arm to make larger the pool below you. At the same time your ribs quake then shatter and spear through your skin and stab you at every waking moment. The tear through your chest is still there...but now theres a growing hole. Raw around the edges, burning as it grows. This hole shows your deteriorating insides and hurts more than anything but the tear through your center. Picture your legs giving out, the muscles in them that held you up moments ago rip painfully. And the bones snap abruptly; still there is nothing you can do. You fall, but not on the ground...there isn't cement, or carpet, or grass or anything. There is a crimson tunnel, a never ending abyss and you fall downward, downward, ever downward. No end, the beginning lost in the blinding pain that wrenches through your body. You can't see anything, but you feel the crimson abyss, like a heat that sears through your head and fries your senses. Can you picture that? On the verge of death but not dying. My heart is lost.Your mind is cracking, with the glass in your spine. Just like the front it is stabbing through your back. It's how I feel...should you call it feeling at all.

And still.........

I blame no one.

I'm just fumbling to shape my melting heart...

~Lameriee~

P.S. I can never not love you...

Hiding

Which secrets are best to keep, and which are best tell? I have a major secret that I'll need to share with my loved ones soon. The only one that knows isn't telling anyone. And I'm very grateful for him. *sighs* I'm very confused. Ever since I saw that man that Uitara was talking to...he looks just like him and...I don't know. Now I'm lost...and I feel so...heavy. And so bad because I never got to say good bye and well so many things were left unsaid, undealt with, and unrevealed. If I could go back in time...just to tell him everything I would, then I would come back to the present time with all my children and my lovely fiance without this weight on my chest. Of course though I would still feel...how do I put it? Oh I don't know. This secret I have...has alot to do with him if not everything to do with him. And not even Sehyo knows. I wish I could tell him...I will tell him. It's not fair for him not to know. I just hope he won't be mad at me for some reason. I don't think he will though he's much too sweet. Well...that's all I suppose. Have a goodnight/day/evening/afternoon. Depending on where you are.

Love Eternally,
~Suketsu Tenshi Aleandera~

Thank You

Dear Mama,

Thanks a lot. Really. I have a feeling had you wanted me, I could have been spared this. He could have been spared this. But from what I've heard you were only thinking of your reputation. I was royalty. Thanks for telling me...I really apperciate it. Truly I do. My 'father' visited me today. I was so happy. We talked for a long time before I had to get back to work. He gave me my ring. The one that makes me what I am. I'm not allowed to wear it though. You know that already though, don't you? If you even remember I exist. You probably have kids now. That you love and cherish, and would do anything for. Hope their happy. My little siblings... My 'father' says you lived in Europe for the past couple years. Where are you now? Where were you before? Why didn't I pass your standards? Whatever. I hope your fucking happy. Because I am. Really. I'm just great.

T.N.T

"Here Comes The Boom."

I Tried

Alright...I tried I really did try to ignore this. I tried to get past it and I even forgot it for a little while, but I can't hold it in anymore and I can't tell Usaru to his face...because...I don't know. I can't tell Aalea either so I hope he doesn't feel bad. Anyway...*sighs* This is about a recurring dream I've been having. I think I know what's causing it but I'm not sure...maybe...someone can help me out...?

It's raining and I have the sense it's early though there is no source of light to be found, and curious still there is no darkness. A familiar male voice calls out to me but I can't place who it belongs to. I follow the voice cautiously, normally I would have a feeling of security with Usaru there, but I didn't feel him close to me so my fear increased to exceedingly high levels. I wrap my arms around myself as I become soaked and grow cold. The voice continues to call me as I walk closer to it. As the voice grows louder and more pained I quicken my steps to find him. A form appears in front of me in the mist of rain and I kneel beside him; "Are you okay?" I question my voice quivering with both fear and the cold. "Yuki..." he says and Usaru's image comes into view sprawled before me. I reach out to him, my hand enclosing itself in his. I would try to help him up if it would not be in vain. "Yuki.." He whispers again and again, and tears begin to fall from my eyes. I look him over to find what is wrong with him, his shirt is torn and frayed and a large pool of blood is building around him but there is no wound that I can see. I begin to shake violently and a heavy hand drops onto my shoulder, its hot and I can feel the heat through my shirt as though it's burning right through my skin. "Yuki, how do you feel now?" Leighton's voice deep and terrorizing echos behind me as I stare up at him. I hear Usaru begin to growl and his hand vibrates over mine. Then a shot, so loud next to my ear I feel as though my ears are going to bleed and Usaru goes silent. His hand ceases to shake, and all too quickly does the warmth of his hand leave mine. In Leighton's hand is something silver, a weapon I've never seen before. I look back to Usaru and scream, as loud as my voice can go and then I am slapped by the hand holding the odd weapon, I'm flung back into a wall. He comes toward me a sadistic smile on his face, his weapon ready; "If I can't have you, Yuki. No one can. And your dumbass fucking friends will perish because of it!" Then another shot and blackness.


*shivers* Normally that's when I wake up to Usaru beside me with the most sorrowful look on his face. Since this dream began I don't recognize him when I wake up and back away from him quickly, screaming things I don't remember. I can't take hurting him like this anymore...but I don't have any control of it. I can't sleep without him, but I cannot hurt him like this anymore. It's breaking his heart. And mine. I'm sorry about this Usaru, sorry I didn't tell you what was going on sooner but I couldn't...I couldn't tell you. I'm too afraid it will happen. I love you.

Haunted By The Past, Fearing The Future,
Yukiko