The Current Situation

Have you ever secretly wondered about something that wasn't at all your business, and then questioned why you cared? *sighs* I live with two males, one of which is more of a second parent to me than anything else. The other is his son..and I find myself resenting many of the females he takes. Why? *shrugs* I haven't a clue. Well maybe I have the slightest inkling as to why. But I'm not certain so I will not post my thoughts on...my thoughts. Right now I am staying in a guest house owned by the Blood Brothers because there is something wrong with my fake father's son. I would tell you, but it's rude to spout information that is not yours to share. Anyway, he believed it was best that I leave their house, apparently he does not trust himself. It's resonable I suppose,but for some reason I find myself upset with his dismissal. It is another one of those things I don't want to explain. I mean we never really talked that much before. Mostly it seemed like he didn't pay attention to me. We both minded our own business. But as he is eased by my presence I find I am silently curious, and...there is a word I cannot seem to figure out that I would like to use to describe my feelings in his presence. Anyway, it is nothing bad, just...a reaction I have never had before. I do not wish to get too attached to him though. For some reason, I feel that were I to do that, it would not end well. As he is one that requires the attentions of many females. Last night he told me that right now I am the only one he wants to be with like that. I have no thoughts on this...I just don't know. No one has ever wanted me intimately before. So it is a pleasant surprise that someone does. A Blood Brother nonetheless. Though I suppose I am making it more of an honor than it should be made. This particular Brother has wanted many females, I am just one of many. I have run with his father's pack for thirteen years now. I knew he had a son. I have met him before, though I doubt he remembers and I am surprised do. He used to protect me all the time. *smiles* It was funny, cause I was stronger than him then. The entire pack was seperated, and I was the only one that was found. My fake father was the one who found me. His wife was killed and his son was missing. We looked for him for a long time. Eventually he and I went our seperate ways. He continued looking for his son, and I...went off on my own. Not happy memories there. Anyway, my friend does not remember me. I supose for the better...but these again are things I dare not express. Anyways, now I am staying in the cold, quiet guest house. I will be here for a month I think he said. *sighs* There are many things that have gone unsaid, perhaps when I figure out how to express myself correctly I will speak what it is I cannot at this moment. I never have been good at getting things across to people with words. Uhm...I'm sure many people will know what and who I speak of, and still many others will not. I am done now, I need to make the guest house more cozy, so *waves* I'll see you around.

TWMA,
~Navii~