Why?

What do you do when the one man you hate is the person your son admires most? People keep saying I should talk to him. Though for some reason I'm not really understanding what it is I should talk to him about. Mae says answer his questions...thus far his question consist of "Why are you being like this!!?", "Don't I have a right to know!?!" and "What are you afraid of?!!" So I'll start with the first one. I am "being like this" pertaining to the way I am currently "being", because I don't trust him and I refuse to allow my son to be around a man who could...do such a thing to his family. I don't know that he's changed, not for sure. And until I do, I don't want my son near him. I won't risk it. That's if I believe he's truly changed even if you proves it to me somehow. That question directly ties to the last one, so I'll answer that one next. Honestly, I fear for my sons life. I realize that my son is strong. But he's not strong enough to defend himself against him, should something go wrong. I will not risk my sons life to allow him to talk to that man. I'm afraid of what may happen. And everytime it's mentioned...my son going to see him that is. Images flash through my mind of son being murdered. His bloody bruised body lying somewhere that I could never find. I simply...don't want those images to come alive. That..is what I'm afraid of. The last question I'm going to answer is the second one I stated. Yes, you have a right to know. You have a right to the history of your family, the workings of our ancestors and the begginings of other kin. I cannot honestly keep that from you. And although there are many things I don't want you to know. Should you ask outright, I would be hesitant but...I would tell you.

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