Nei-Nei's Blog

Hatarunei----

'kay, so this blog is about two things: 1) My family 2) This blog. I think I'll star with this blog. The site itself is hardly ever used. And no one reads it, but I'm the one who has posted the most I think. And now I think it should be my blog. Does that sound mean? That I want it for myself? I concur (I learned that from my uncle) that it does sound a bit selfish, but it is kind of true. I do post the most. But I guess if it was my blog I would be here a lot writing in it and stuff. Constantly changing the format and things and then it might mess up the computer and blah blah. I don't think it will be mine but if it does become mine....I hope you continue to read it. Okay, now my family. Now, my brothers as you should know are...not smart sometimes. They get in trouble a lot...or they used to. Now they don't get in trouble, they don't do anything bad, they listen and they mind their manners and are respectful and everything! It's like a magic trick. But the downside to this is Papa won't talk to them anymore. I know someone out there is thinking "That doesn't make any sense, if their being good shouldn't he be praising them?" well I understand your confusion. You see, the last time they were bad they broke something Extremely important to Papa. He was really mad. So mad Momma was even afraid for a little while. Phon and Tsubara didn't even say sorry. Tsubara just ran to his corner in the kitchen and cried, and Phon stood there. Waiting for the punishment he thought was coming. Like normal. But this time Papa.....Papa just glared at him. He glared at Phon like he wanted to kill him. Then he disappeared and didn't come back for a while. Momma went after him and calmed him down. When they came back Phon and Tsubara and me were in bed, half asleep. I heard Momma and Papa go into their room and talk. Papa told Momma that he wasn't going to talk to Phon or Tsubara anymore. For a long time, he said he won't talk to them. And Momma agreed! That surprised me because normally Momma says something like "Now Hito, you know they don't mean it. They're just kids." or "I'm sure they've learned their lesson." then Papa agrees and everything goes back to normal. But this time Momma said "I completely agree. Ignore them as long as you want to, Hito." then they started speaking really quietly and I couldn't hear them no more. Since then Papa hasn't talked to them at all. He won't even say "mornin'" to them anymore when we all wake up. He only says it to me. At first Phon and Tsubara thought he was saying it to them too but Papa only looked at me and smiled. It made me sad a little bit. But I guessed Momma and Papa knew what they were doing. When Phon asks Papa a question Papa completely ignores him. He doesn't look around and ask "Who said that?" He just continues doing whatever like Phon never said anything. Yesterday I saw Tsubara crying in the garden underneath his favorite tree. I asked him what was wrong and he said "Dad doesn't love me anymore....I know it..." I told Tsubara that Papa still loved him but he didn't believe me. So I went inside and asked Papa if he still loved Tsubara.....but Papa didn't say anything. He just looked at me. I don't know what that means. Does he still love them or not? Phon doesn't show that he's affected but I know he is. I can hear him with Momma asking her when Papa will stop being mad, because he misses being able to hear Papa's stories, and reading with him and stuff. But Momma said she doesn't know, and I believe her. She has no idea. Just like the rest of us. I don't think Papa will ever get over this, but I hope he starts talking to Phon and Tsubara again soon. I feel like something in the family snapped and disappeared. So now we're all farther apart than we were before. I think I'll talk to Uncle Shunukasun about it. He knows everything 'cause he's old. Or maybe Uncle Kin....he talks to Papa a lot so maybe he knows. Oh oh! I know! I'll talk to Auntie Shunae and Uncle Lie when he gets back from Lance....France. Yeah France. He went to France with Auntie Tori to get married. Momma says they're going to come back with a cousin or two. I dunno. Maybe. I think I have enough cousins though. But it's okay to have a lot of cousins. Okay so I think I'm going to go to bed now. Good night.

Broken apart by invisible ice picks,
Nei-Nei