My Lost Romance

My Lost Romance©
I find with the heat of time,
That all I wish for,
Cannot be found
And with this breath
On which I speak,
The doom of Romance,
Is at it's peak

The broken chain of My Lost Romance,
Is spiraling toward me,
Its sharp pointed edge,
And metal links,
Will break me, will carve me,
To shape a hole, a void so black,
[So deep, so deep I can't come back]
The rips and tears will sound aloud,
[My broken heart will cease to pound]
The end of me is near,
I feel it in the air,
Pain is ringing through my ears,
Along with My Lost Romance

[I'm lost I'm lost,
My love is lost,
It's broken and wilting,
Dying and withering,
Never to love me,
I've lost I've lost]

I've loved him forever,
Always with all of my heart,
He's a broken figure,
In the mirror their eyes,
To me he's a sculpture,
A masterpiece of lies,
One thing that held me,
To this world of ours,
[Hold me, hold me keep here]
But he won't love me,
[Love me, I love you, love me dear]
Now it's gone, the flame I saw,
Lost as a shadow far before dawn,
Lost and broken,
Much like me,
Departed and drifting,
Headed for the sea,
That was my one chance,
Now its gone forever more,
Gone with the wind,
My Lost Romance...

[I'm dying I'm dying,
My love is dying,
Its shattered and ruined,
Tattered and stained,
Never to accept me,
Nothing remains]

I find with the heat of time,
That all I wish for,
Cannot be found
And with this breath
On which I speak,
The doom of Romance,
Is at it's peak

My Lost Romance,
My Lost Romance,
Ending far from my last chance,
Carving hole after hole,
Into my chest,
Ripping me apart,
Not destroying the rest,
It beats, It beats,
This heart of mine,
Though ruined and crippled,
A shriveled shrine,
To all that I've loved,
And the love I have for you,
It's dying Its dying,
But it still beats true.

I'll cry all my life,
For this loss I face,
But I cannot hate you,
[I will not hate you]
You've left a print,
A tread in my blood,
Though this love is lost,
[Though it never was]
I will love you,
I still do,
My Lost Romance...

[I'm not okay, I'm not okay,
My love is not okay,
Its hurting and pained,
Moaning and crying,
Never to stop these tears,
Never loved me all these years]

I find with the heat of time,
That all I wish for,
Cannot be found
And with this breath
On which I speak,
The doom of Romance,
Is at it's peak

I'm caving, I cannot stand,
Through this torture you demand,
[I shall not love you]
It's like a whipping on my back,
Through my clothes and to my flesh,
[Tears of blood drip from my eyes]
Ripping through my skin,
Cutting through muscle,
Spattering blood,
I strain to stand against it,
The flood of pain that clutches my heart,
To grip and squeeze and rip me apart,
I can stand no longer,
My knees shall hit the floor,
And shatter with the last piece you left,
Of my heart,
I've misstepped in this dance,
It's lost, I'm lost,
My Lost Romance...

That says it all...and I place blame on no one...

xxxLaMerieexxx

Hurry Hurry

Okay so I don't have very long to write this...oh yeah!

--- Hatarunei

Okay so I'll write this now 'cause it's close to my showing and once Papa finds out it won't matter anymore. I'm prepared for this to be my last show. See I volunteered for the 'dark' clothing this time, 'cause I thought I could make it look good, right? What I didn't know was that I would have to dye my hair. But I was going to take it back and do my normal line instead but they would have given the line to Reva and I just can't have that. So I let them dye it. Now instead of it's normal dark blue with black streaks...it's all black. Solid black there's no color. I don't think Papa will even recognize me. And if he does I hope he waits till the end to freak out. I haven't been home since yesterday when they did it, and I'm not leaving until call time (about 7:00). So now that I've explained all this and I don't have to worry about it anymore I don't have to hide as carefully. I can talk to my brothers now, I know they won't tell Mama and Papa. And my sister should be okay with it too (she's dyed her hair before) Besides it isn't like I'll have it this way for very long. I can wash the dye out. It's just for the show. I look pretty much the same, my eyes are the same color (bright green like Papa's) and I won't have to wear contacts again like the other girls 'cause they match this time, finally. I think my Aunt will be happy I'm trying out her style. I kind of like it. If it's okay with Papa I want at least 2 black outfits. That's all, just 2. Think he'll be okay with that? ^_^ I've noticed all most all my posts are about Papa. But that's probably cause I love him so much! *smiles* I'm gonna go now and practice 'waltzing' (it's what they call walking with style) Bye bye!

It's Fun To Do The Things You Like,
Nei-Nei

^_^

Heeheehee, this is only my second post?
I think it should have been more.
Of course..........................................
Things have happened to prevent this.
Oh but the whole entire meaning of this post is...

CONGRATULATIONS DEVONTE' AND DESTINY!!!!
^_^

I was going to wait for some else to do it...but I couldn't. It was just too exciting!! Their getting married, but I don't know when. So now that that's done. Akeno-kun is going to move!!! :( I'm very, very sad. My bestest friend in the whole wide world is leaving! Do you know where he is going? Me either. But his parents said they have to move 'cause Akeno-kun's dad's army people are moving to somewhere so he has to too. I want them to stay...but they can not. *sighs* this is very devastating....my Dad is trying to convince them not to leave, 'cause Akeno-kun's dad is one of his only friends. (Dad doesn't have a lot of them that I see) and Mom will lose her cooking partner, Akeno-kun's mama, they talk all the time and Akeno-kun comes over when she comes over. But they said they will try not to move too far. I hope this is so. I will be more sad if they move very very far away, then I won't see Akeno-kun and his little sister anymore.*sighs* On another note, my big brother (whom I recently found out isn't even really related to me, which is kind of sad) moved in with his girlfriend and that was last week. I haven't seen him since! I will have to tell his girlfriend she can't have him all to her self. I want him back. He was my brother first. And that gets to sound selfish 'cause I don't do that very often. (only when it comes to my brothers and sisters!) I bet you all know who's posting this now. Bet you didn't before, when I wasn't talking about the people I talk about all the time. How can I not talk about them though? I dunno. I have to go help my mom now so byebyes!

Keepin' Up With The Rest Of The World,

D.C. Nishi